"I didn't do this..." Xiang Lingfeng wants to say that, but he doesn't know how. Under Ji Rou's gaze, he suddenly can't speak up to explain for himself.
In a trance, Ji Rou in his eyes is the one he can't be familiar with any more, her eyes are clear and bright, or the one who has the heart to be seen through.
The past good days flashed in Xiang Lingfeng's mind like a movie.
"Lingfeng, today is xiaorou's two-year-old birthday. Today, we go to her uncle's house to celebrate her birthday. In a moment, you must wish her a happy birthday." Xiang's mother said, holding Xiang Lingfeng's hand. Ji Rou was two years old that year, and Xiang Lingfeng was only four years old, but he still remembered what happened that day.
On that day, he went to Jirou's birthday party with his parents. It was also the first time that Jirou called him "brother Feng" with her soft, waxy little milk voice, so he never forgot it.
Ji Rou began to speak a little later than her peers. She was almost two years old before she learned to call Mom and dad. Xiang Lingfeng, who was over four years old, didn't think that the third person she learned to call was "brother Feng", neither did anyone else.
It's her "brother Feng" who is soft and waxy that brings the relationship between them closer. From then on, as long as there is a small place of Jirou, you can basically see the shadow of Xiaoxiang Lingfeng.
In the words of the adults at that time, Xiang Lingfeng was like a knight guarding Jirou's side. As long as she needed him, he would surely appear beside her and sweep away all difficulties for her.
Later, they grew up slowly. When Xiang Lingfeng was in primary school, Ji Rou was still in kindergarten. However, Xiang Lingfeng would spare time to go to Ji's house to accompany Ji Rou every day. He would accompany her to read some intelligence books read by children in kindergarten and write and draw with her.
Year after year, two years passed quickly, and Ji Rou reached the age of primary school. On the day of Jirou's school opening, in addition to her parents' company, she also had an extra item Lingfeng.
Since then, Xiang Lingfeng, who is three years old, will wait for Ji Rou every day after school. She can't do her homework. He teaches her. She was too lazy to read, and he accompanied her.
Primary school is like this, junior high school is like this, to the university or so.
Ji Rou is a girl with a water spirit. When she was in junior high school, many boys around her. But she never looked at those boys, except her brother Feng. Of course, the prince and the monkey are different, because Ji Rou may never treat them as the opposite sex.
Junior high school three years, they have experienced many things together, but let Xiang Lingfeng remember the most clearly is his sprained foot can not walk that time.
At that time, he was in the third grade of junior high school, and Jirou was just a girl in the first grade of junior high school, but when she saw his sprained foot, she said nothing and squatted in front of him: "brother Feng, you come up, I will take you to the clinic."
He has developed into a big boy, but she is very thin, so how can she carry him? But Ji Rou insists on carrying, and Xiang Lingfeng is stubborn. She tried to let her carry some, and she would give up if she could not.
He didn't know that her thin body can burst out amazing strength. She almost trotted to the clinic with him on her back and handed him over to the school doctor. At the same time, she collapsed on the chair, unable to relax for half a day.
Similarly, when Xiang Lingfeng was in senior three, Ji Roucai was in senior one. In that year, they were mature and gradually understood the relationship between men and women, but they still maintained the most pure friendship.
Their home is not far from the school. Every day, he would ride a bicycle to take her to the school, and she would chatter behind him all the time. Every little thing came out of her mouth, he would find it particularly interesting.
If she doesn't say it one day, he will feel unaccustomed to it, and then he will ask for it actively. So such a daily life has become a sweet way for them to get along with each other.
After high school, he successfully entered a university. A university is not in the same direction as their high school, but he will send her to school every day and pick her up after school.
At that time, the happiest time of his day was when he received her before school in the morning and after school every night. She smiled and called him "brother Feng".
However, at that time, he was 18 years old and got his driver's license. His family bought him a car and he drove it to Ji rou. Their means of transportation are different, but their sweet relationship has not changed at all.
No, there should be some changes. Every day after college, he is looking forward to her growing up quickly. He hopes that he can turn her into his girlfriend as soon as possible and marry her home earlier.
It took him another two or three years to achieve this goal.
One year ago, when Ji Rou finally nodded to be his girlfriend, and when he finally could live as her boyfriend, he was as happy as if he had the whole world. He was so excited that he didn't sleep well for two nights.
Ji Rou is brave, but she has a simple mind. He has lost sleep because of her, but she doesn't know anything. When she looks tired on his face, she cries with heartache.
Where does she know? He is happy because she promised to be his girlfriend.
At that time, Jirou trusted him wholeheartedly, believed everything he did, believed every word she said, and supported her unconditionally for everything he did.
Someone asked him if he would not be tired after taking care of her for so many years?
How can I be tired?
Because he has been used to her in his life, he has reserved a place for her for a long time. They don't know that they can make her trust and rely so much, and he can be satisfied and happy.
He likes to see her laugh and listen to her cry "brother Feng" sweet and soft, but now he really realizes how much harm he has done to her.
She still called him "brother Feng", but the tone was no longer the one he was familiar with. These days, he thinks that she has changed, and now he understands that he is the one who has changed.
Because he hated, he was jealous, he wanted to be with her not only because he was happy with her, but also because he didn't want her to be robbed by other men.
In his cognition, Ji Rou should have been him, as if he had early branded his exclusive label in her world
It's because of his jealousy, because of his hatred, because of his unwillingness, that she lost her first child in her life, and may not even be a mother in the future.
Is that what he meant?
No!
For a long time, he wanted to give her the happiness of the whole world and make her happy as a little princess forever and ever. People around him loved her and loved her.